Hey Xanga. I'm still alive.

But not into blogging as much.

Currently Watching Degrassi The Next Generation - Season 1 By Stacey Farber, Miriam McDonald, Mike Lobel, Deanna Casaluce, Andrea Lewis, Cassie Steele, Lauren Collins, Christina Schmidt, Ryan Cooley, Aubrey Graham, Jake Epstein, Melissa McIntyre, Shane Kippel, Jake Goldsbie, Sarah Barrable-Tishauer, Amanda Stepto, Stefan Brogren, Pat Mastroianni, Stacie Mistysyn, Daniel Clark see related

I'm over thinking about it, and here's the big kicker. I thought I needed a break from me. From all things that are my life, which is completely absurd.

I realized last night, things haven't changed, and the important things, the important people before all this summer drama, before all the ruthless people, before the fucking lesbians, there was my friends. My friends for years. I don't know who I was pretending to be, but I was most certainly not myself.

Here I have friends of old back, who enjoy my company, and have missed me given the extended absence i've served in their lives. Wow. What kind of friend was I to them. A lame one for sure.

Went to Andy's last night and we all talked like it was yesterday that we were watching some random horror movie in his room. I hope there'll be many more in the future. I'm sure there will be. I'm still due for a Resident Evil Marathon with either Andy or Scott.

I don't let anyone talk to me like you did, so just like that, you are no longer part of my life. And when I was upset, the people who matter were there.

Caitlin got back two days ago, and we've hung out pretty hardcore since her return. She and I rented Degrassi last night, as well as some Prison Break. Good god Degrassi is so cheesy, but I like it. We were up until roughly 2:30 listening to Danielle's new radio show and laughed so hard. Then I watched Prison Break until 4:30. So basically i'm happy I didn't start classes today. Thank god for no Tuesday or Thursday classes!

That's all for now. Signing out. Take care all!

Currently Watching Will & Grace - Season Two see related

MEGHAN IS IN TOWN! A trip well needed and timed before I imploded.

I'm finding some of the best people on this earth are my coworkers, namely Jess and Ben. It goes to figure that you find people who are extremely genuine and caring in the most unlikely of places. I can't express how good it's been to have them both.

I miss my family. Very very much. Jason turned 28 yesterday, which weirds me out to such an extreme degree. I feel like he's accomplished so much in such a short time, and I only hope that I can do as much as he has. I'm very proud of my big brother, and I love him.

Back to Will and Grace with Meggo. Take care all! Life is perfect.

Currently Listening PCD By The Pussycat Dolls see related

It's funny how you can ruin people's lives without even considering the damage you've caused. I don't know how I ever looked at you with anything but contempt. You are the most cruel person I know, and will always be that way.

I'm glad I know now. This way, I can tell everyone the real truth about you. A liar, a whore, a cheat, and a hypocrite.

In all seriousness, i'm really doing good. Sorry for all of the downer entries lately. I miss many of you. Especially my family. Love ya'll!

She's gone and I hate it.

Last night was really hard. But fortunately I have a really good support system. Whether it was long distance on the phone or in person, my friends really are there for me. And like Brendon said, "maybe this was really how the story was supposed to end." Ending another chapter in my many failed...you know.

And a special thank you to Meghan, who did me a favor and broke into my account! LOL! I love you!

I guess it's time to move on. I just hate doing it. It takes too much energy.

Last night was pretty fun. Took me a little while, but I opened up. And thank god for Karissa and Jess and late night runs to McDonalds (which was Meghan and my thing first...i know...) and late night story swapping in my green bed. I'm glad I didn't have to pass out by myself. That's all.

Peace. For everyone.